*thoughts*

Today I got off work early and headed to the doctors office. For those of you who don’t know (not many) Jeff and I have been trying to have a baby for just over 18 months now. I went to the doctor because after my surgery in April, he told me I should come back in a few weeks and he wanted to run a pregnancy test if I hadn’t had a period (sorry for any guys who may be reading this…) in 2 weeks from that date. Well I waited the 2 weeks (actually a little over) and I went in today only to have my hopes destroyed once again. Yep, the test came back negative, so now I get to be put on some pills to start my cycle. Say it with me girls, something like “yay” with absolutely NO enthusiasm. I also get to start taking Clomid again. Hopefully this whole ordeal will be over within the next 2-3 months, but I guess you just never know! Sometimes the Lord has other plans in store for us, and I hope I can learn to be better at trying to understand that there might be some things I need to do first. I hope that I can spend my strength and energy being the best friend and wife for Jeff. I love him so much! And our life together is the best thing that we could wish for! He is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and I hope I am taking the time to let him know how much he means to me. Babe I love you a million-bajillion lemon drops!! And no matter what happens over the next few months, you are my everything.