Random thoughts

I don't post things very often, mostly because I don't know enough people who read this to update it that often...

But here are some random things that have been my life lately. Some of you know my grandma is in a nursing home. At first she was living with my mom and driving all of them CRAZY! I love my grandma, don't get me wrong, but she is VERY needy of attention. It got to the point that they bought my youngest sister Kori a lock for her bedroom door because Nana kept walking in there any ole time and asking her to help her with things that she really didn't need help with, or insisting that Kori cook for her or demanding to know where our mother was :) Once my mom realized that there was no way for someone to be sitting with her day in and day out at our house, they moved her to an assisted living facility where she would have lots of people around all day and her own room and everything. She acted like a 4 year old on the first day of preschool "I'm not going!" but eventually came around and moved in. Then she decided that the only way she could move out of that place and back home with my mom was to start falling down, when walking, or falling out of bed. Then when my family would come see her, she'd say "Are you taking me home now?" Which of course was out of the question seeing how there wasn't anyone at home to take care of her. Then one day she fell and hurt her hip and they took her to the hospital because she couldn't walk or move very well, and when she got there they decided to keep her because she was so dehydrated (because Nana feels like diet coke is the drink of choice no matter what time of day, and refused to drink anything else) After her hospital stay, she was moved to the nursing home where she is now, and her mind has slowly slipped into something incomprehensible.

She knows exactly who we all are, but her words make no sense i.e. "Oh I'm just such a tinger." and "If I fan a ray il nes fear." Our best guess on that last one was 'If I ran away till next year'
if you have any other suggestions, please enlighten me lol! But last weekend my grandma's younger brother and his family came up to visit her, and I went as well and took my puppies, because we thought it'd be fun for her to see them since she hadn't in so long. When we showed her Copper and she petted him, she said something about "we should get you some greased beef" seriously made my sisters and I laugh SO HARD, we're still laughing about that one.

Another random thing lately... I've been having tons of nightmares lately. I don't know if it is related to the pregnancy, but seriously I've been losing tons of sleep and end up getting up in the middle of the night to read a book or something, then I sleep in the next morning far longer than I'd like and the day seems wasted because I'm so exhausted. My poor husband has been really patient with this new transition, and I hope those darn dreams will go away and get replaced with the pleasant or quirky-silly dreams I've had in the past. Anything but sad or scary :(

Our families have started planning baby showers for me, which is exciting and a little scary still knowing that every day is one step closer to becomming a family of 3. And I'm constantly worried that I need to make the most of the time I have with Jeff just the 2 of us. I know this should be a happy time, and it is for the most part, except for when I think of how different things will be, and worrying that I might lose part of my relationship. Or maybe it's just the hormones rushing around that makes me so up and down...
While planning these showers, I've realized that I have a weird obsession that I don't want anyne to buy my child ANYTHING characterized.

I hate when people dress their newborns in Winnie-the-pooh when they honestly won't even know what or who he is for at least2-3 years. My LEAST favorite has got to be the looney tunes characters. Tweety in particular. Drives me NUTS! I also had a hard time deciding whether or not to register anywhere, because Target and Babies-r-us were the only places I was thinking of. We ended up registering at both, but seriously it felt like a waste of time, because most of the things we registered for were bedding, bottles, and baby hygeine items. Which don't really need to be registered for. I honestly feel like registering was a waste of time, and I would be better off to have each family do a theme shower to make sure we get the things we need. I think I will suggest that to at least my family, although it might be too late for my in-laws...

That is it for my random thoughts for today. (and a few mini-rants...)
Until next time :)